I gotta write about this new Jens Lekman song. Jens? He taught me how to love. Seriously, this guy taught me more than I ever thought a Swedish pop star could.
But this song reminds me so vividly of the first girl I ever loved, my high school crush. Seriously, I remember how this girl smelled. I probably will remember until I die. I don't really remember how my ex-girlfriends smelled, but I remember the whiff of this girl's perfume from across a hormone-laden classroom. And I remember how it would hit and how I'd be so weak in the knees afterwards.
A few years ago, one of my roommates had this same perfume. I was coming up the stairs to our apartment after work. And it just hit me in the face.
"It's got a sadness in it, knowing how it ended."
Yup. To this day. Yup.
"She's gone forever. Now every heart may feel, at least it was real. If it could hurt like that."
I guess if anything hurts, maybe it's real? Who knows. This just brought me back 10 years.